Growing through Bondage

My most recent adventure in bondage, FTP (forced toe pointer) trainers, what an interesting experience that was. They are incredibly beautiful and a first of their kind edition with locking mechanisms added at my Sir’s request.

Now I have absolutely no experience as a dancer, I have spent zero time on my toes with the exception of a fairly comfortable set of high heels. But my Sir presented me with these FTP trainers as part of his most recent bondage scene. I had to learn incredibly quickly how to walk in them, completely bound, in circles, around my home, and then the added intensity of impact and sensation play.

I love the new things he always comes up with to challenge me and push my boundaries. When I don’t think I’m capable of something, he usually thinks I am, and always turns out to be right. His trust in my abilities to take risks, try new and daring things, always leaves me feeling full of confidence I didn’t have before. This is one of the greatest gifts he gives me.

Even the simple act of posting our activities to FL leaves me feeling anxious, always thinking that no one will have any interest in seeing me, what he has done with me. I have self confidence issues, body issues, and yet he sees something in me I struggle to see but obviously others see it too, because without a doubt there is always a great number of people that follow his posts and enjoy our content. I find it shocking every time.

I believe a day will come when I will have the same confidence in the world that I have when in his trusted hands, but for now I can only trust in him. I will believe in what he sees in me and try to see it for myself, and continue to grow into this person so I can try and face the world as a stronger woman.

Onto the next adventure…

Kinky Blonde Girl

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