A New State of Affairs

The day always comes.

After the breakup.

They have to pick up their stuff.

Yesterday was that day.

My Dom was coming over for the first time since the end of our relationship and I didn’t know what to expect.

I still followed all the same rules, did my hair as he likes, my makeup as he directs, and dressed precisely according to all established rules. I don’t know how to be any different in his presence and so I could only follow the established rules because it’s all I know. Admittedly it was such a pleasure to do all those little things again.

As I waited for his arrival I found I was shockingly calm. There was a slight sense of nervous energy that reminded me of our very first meeting, but amazingly when I answered the door and saw his face for the first time since all the chaos ensued, everything felt ok.

He wrapped his arms around me giving me the biggest hug and those arms that I had come to trust and treasure still felt like home. The way he held me, gently brushing my hair aside and holding my head close to his chest, showed just how much he still cares for me. Our undeniable connection was reaffirmed in those first moments together again, and although everything is different, it’s also still the same. This man has touched my life in a way no one else ever has.

Our relationship is changed forever. I will never be his submissive and he will never be my Dominant again, but we are friends, very special friends. We have found our way through the pain and the disappointment, through the worst days, weeks, and even months. Now it’s time to move forward in peace and harmony, friends with a connection that seems supernatural, memories that will never fade, and plans to stay in each other’s lives for as long as life allows.

After a great visit and a good long talk, I sent him on his way feeling peace. A peace I haven’t felt about our situation in a good long time. And I know he feels it too. It was great to reconnect and sort out some things in person in a calm and peaceful manner, and we treated each other with all the caring and respect that our relationship has always been filled with.

It was so good to have that time, finally. What I had feared and almost dreaded turned out to be a great day and I’m moving forward a little lighter. I still have a little ways to go, but this was a big step on the journey of coming to that place of healing and wholeness again. I see the light, it’s getting brighter, and soon I will be basking in all its glory again.

To taking big steps 🥂

Kinky Blonde Girl

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